hoMeeE

the feeling of back home is different...
dun ask me why, i'm not sure thou!
perhaps, it has been a long time that i never step on the ground of Tmn Sri Gombak...
i'm not sure what my feeling would be if i come back from US next time!!! :o

To me, home=foods....
my home now is the kingdom of foods....(only in the presence of me...so, dun go to my home in hope for foods if i'm not exist there!)
apparently, my mum will cooks & cooks & cooks &.....
consequently, i will eat & eat & eat &.....
i hv no other choices than 'sweeping' all the foods....after all, its all bcoz of me....my mum won't cooks if i'm not at home....so, to be precise; i'm the one who is 'responsible'......:):)
I'M GAINING WEIGHT!!!
some of them said i looked better in the 'fat look'....
anyway, i shall watch my weight starting from today....for the sake of my health...(is not good to b lk bandaraya & sweep whatever is edible into my rotten stomach)

i went back to my 'memory land' on friday.....
i'm surprised that everybody was shocked bcoz of my new look....
no one recognized me when i just sat there quietly....
i could only see the word 'unbelievable' throught their expression....
they just didn't believe that i am syen that they knew before....
''Is that u?''.....this is the question that i got from almost everyone!
is funny....what am i going to say?? yes? no?...haha
''Gt bf?''....another common question from them!
i just don't understand why they are so concern about this....??
is that nothing else to know more about an ex-student lk me?....
i dun mind when this question is posted to me....but i'm just wondering why..
is really funny that everybody is asking me the same kind of thing......& i dun think this is the right time for me to think about it....

there is still a long long path for me to explore & explode!!!

anyway...i'm happy to be here in 'memory land'...(thou is just for a while)
:):):):):):):):):):):):)

zOmbiE is here!!!

i'm doing some research on 'transgender'....
as a preparation for upcoming major presentation...
really hate research!!!
i spent the whole day sitting infront of my lappie like a nerd...
at the end, i just got some information.....:(:(
& i left the mountain of accounting tutorials behind.
i'm not a procastinator & i dun lk to accumulated works as i knew the effects pretty well.
but now, i'm suffering for the consquences.....
all this is not what i wanted....i accumulated the tutorials desperately as i hv to deal with the freaking exams...**slapping myself**
perhaps, this shall be my moral lesson & i would think twice the next time when i want to keep my works again.....

econs test, csc test, & csc tutorial done!!!
csc test...--*sigh**
i hv been studied like crazy....on thursday, i just slept for 2 hours++ out of 24 hours.
this was the 1st time i sacrificed my sleeping hours for exam...
i never do that b4 even for public examination!
yea....the month of March reminds me of the result of SPM examination...
both mine(2008) & my students(2009)...
hopefully they would score with flying colors....
i'm so worry as if i'm one of the candidates who is waiting for the result!

time passes by so fast that i didn't realize i'm heading towards the end of semester already....
6 more weeks to go......
i don't know that time is so precious b4 that...
i only realize it when i'm here dealing with hectic life & begging for extra time!

i think thats all for my bullshitting session~~~

unFOcUsable

-Sunday evening 3.30pm-

i'm so blardy sleepy & wanted to just dive 'into' the nice slumberland!
currently...i'm revising csc for the freaking test that's just around the corner.
i couldn't focus much as my eyelid keep on 'dropping' down lk nobody's business...

this reminds me of Mr.Bean who use stick to 'hold' his eyelid.....
perhaps i should try that! wakaka:):)

actually i don't hv much time to study after today since the routine of attending classes is going on as usual during the weekdays....

i now can tell u that memorizing subjects such as csc, history, & etc is 101% not my cup of coffee!

when i would hv d opportunity to get rid of all these stupid subjects that would eat up all my brain cells???

another thing that i'm worrying is when i can go home??
defenitely not this week....
& perhaps not the week with holiday on monday....
but, somebody would probably hang me to dead if i'm not doing so!
well, i should spare some time going back...
i realized an amazing fact...
i'm in love with INTI right now...
thats why i don't feel lk travelling all the way back from Nilai to Selangor even i'm A BIT free...
HaiZ...another headache thing!

ok...
i shall stop crapping now...
& continue my revision journey....


*signing off**

tightening of lips >.<

My current StatUs:

1.) can't breathe....suffocating....

2.) emo...-.- so much thing happened in such a split second....

3.) trying hard to avoid being influenced by all those internal & external problems that might trigger my focus on studies....

4.) but...is this what ppl always say--- 'didn't dare to confront with reality'???

5.) i'm entering an arena of life wich is FULL of tests, mid-terms, assignments, tutorials, presentations, & secretary's jobs....

6.) Here goes the lists of my upcoming tasks to be completed:

• Memorandum for venue booking
• Sponsorship letter
• Proposal
• Minutes for event meeting
• Account tutorials
• Presentation(Talk Show)
• Econs Mid-term
• Moral assignment 3
• CSC test 1
• Econs Forum
• Account test 2
• Account assignment
• Moral assignment 4
• Econs assignment
• CSC assignment 2
• Moral assignment 5
• 3 CSC tutorials
• Account Mid-tem
• CSC test 2
• CSC assignment 3

7.) summary:

- 4 jobs for club event

- 4 tutorials

- 7 assignments

- 5 tests & Mid-term

- 1 forum

- Presentations on every monday

8.) Sometimes, i'm just thinking whether d education system in US is similar as what i'm going through now...!!!

9.) Where is my strength?...in order to overcome all these unknown challenges...

10.) i'm not able to exist in Tmn Sri Gombak for at least 1 month time due to these whole bunch of works & of course, other reasons as well.....will stick at Nilai to FIGHT!

Outcome of today:

EDUCATION IS JUST AS LIFE,

IT IS NEVER AN EASY PATH!!!

summary...

i just finished 2 tests today...
& got back my account paper...
an unexpected marks indeed!

econs test...
errm =.= is a bit tough...
coz i didn't revised much as i focused mre on csc...
hopefully i could score well.....it contributes 10%...
10% is a LOT man!!!

csc tutorial...
apparently, it was a tutorial...
actually, it was a test...
it carries 2% ONLY...
u would most probably wonder why i focused more on it instead of the 10% econs test...
coz this is a freaking crazy subject that freaking difficult to score for an A!

i had a long chat with my lecturer just now...
she is a nice person...
Don't ever judge a book by its cover,
u would never know what is the content inside unless u flip into it!!!

i hv added her into my list of 'NICE PPLs THAT I HV EVER MET' :)

i survived through the wars this week....
but the wars is going to be continue on next week....

anyway, i feel a bit sick now...+.+
my temperature is on the rise!!!

i cAn fLy~~~~

HOORAY!!!

i hv completed csc assignment which i started doing it b4 CNY!
i poured in so much secret recipe & ingredients....(sweat+blood+$$+energy+brain+saliva....)
i'm soOo satisfied with it~~~...(though the outcome is not the best!)

finished the 1st simply means the 2nd is coming...
in fact, i took decades to complete the 1st one even it was the easiest assignment(according to the lecturer) compared to the coming....
p/s : i dun think it deserves the word 'easy' though!
i hv no idea how am i going to work on the 2nd & 3rd one.....(@.@)
...better stop using my wild imagination...
...i will definitely grow older!!!


i cAn fLy is not exactly i can fly!!!
gotta prepare for the coming 'wars'......
wish me luck!!!
BYE~~

~THE SECRET OF WIN IS TO BEGIN~

SUPER-BUSY-DAYS...

sorry for dissapear so long...

i was too busy to scribble anything

my life is unstable...*sigh**

a few things to update here...

1.) i hv another new hairstyle...changed it on the 6th day of CNY!

2.) most of my friends doubt that i am me! even my lecturer thought i'm a new student! Is my new look really shocking???
3.) i was tied with a whole bunch of works--clubs, assignmentssss, testsss, tutorialss, mid termsss, revisons & the list goes on....

4.) i'm sick due to the busy routine & sleep deprievation(i look exactly lk a malaysia panda)

5.) the coming weeks would be a real pain!---more works coming, my calander is 'full house'!

6.) my hope is.....i would hv d opportunity to say YES when somebody ask me 'r u still surviving? '...lol

~signing off**ciuh~~