Anger

Please allow me to vent out my anger here.
I always tell ppl that 'Getting angry at someone is actually punishing urself with other's fault'.
But today, I lost my common sense completely....i couldn't control myself.

I am so angry....& disappointed at what is happening!

I am angry coz the one who should be responsible for my problem doesn't help me even the slightest bit, but in turn accuse me & blame me for what is happening! I am the real victim in this case.....i wonder if i made the wrong decision in the first place!? i wonder if i am d only one who deserve all the blaming!?

I am disappointed coz of the kind of treatment i get from a 'great' manager in a 'great' Bank back in my home-country! I wonder what's wrong with the people, what's wrong with the system, what's wrong with the place where i come from!? I dunno if i am the only one to be treated this way!? I dunno if this is how they work with ppl, with this kind of lousy attitude!? I am the customer, I am the victim, when something happens, u just push everything back to me & let me figure it out on my own. I am a few thousand miles apart from my home.....what did u expect me to do!? Aren't u supposed to be guiding me what to do next?! I called all the way from d other half of d globe hoping to get some hint on what to do next but what i got is ur bullshit & blaming!

I am real disappointed.
I am helpless.
But I am so glad that i found out some hint by myself, & if this hint is the real main cause of the problem, i shall see what kind of treatment & explanation u will give me next! SCREW U!

I'm sorry to be vending & spilling out my anger uncontrollably.
I'm actually having problem with some Bank issue & that is enough to make my tears over-flowing!!!

Regards,
Furious Me.

Snow Shower

I was walking on the street in the morning...
I realized there was some white cute-little thingie flying around & sticked on my scaft...
The wind was getting stronger...
& the white-thingie was getting more & more...
...only then I realized that it was SNOW!

30thNOV2010@11.49am,
I stood on the street for about 10minutes...
Everyone one was walking fast,
coz it was cold....
I can see 'smoke' was coming out from ppl's mouth....including mine.
I was trying to 'catch' some snow...
but i failed coz there were too tiny to be hold!
So this time is real....the real snow has come.

Today is the last day of November.
Today is the 100th day since the day I arrived in Madison.
Today I witness the first snow in my life & I made a wish...

Winter has officially started!


there're many more 100days to come

snow-flake

A day of horror

'A personal affair will require you to make a quick decision. You must determine how engage in the situation you will be, while realizing the sincerity of the situation. Do not rush to resolve the situation, you do not want to jump to conclusion. Patience is your best card to play.'

The above is my today's horoscope.
Again, it comes true.
Something happened.
I am so worry, so angry, so freak out, so sad, so tense....
I don't know what to do....
I don't know if I am able to deal with this...
My tears keep on flowing.....I am so helpless.....
Perhaps, i should calm down & tell myself everything is gonna be fine.

私の人生の変化

The above is the title of my Japanese Speech~Changes in my life~
I'm having a Speech Presentation in d end of this semester.
It carries quite a huge percentage of contribution towards my grade in this course.
I've just done with my two & a half pages of final draft outline.
I am glad that I progress well in this course.
I have been learning new things in every lecture & discussion that i attend everyday.
Frankly, this course is heavy. But it is fun to learn a new way of speaking something in a new language. I really like it a lot!
How i wish i can continue to take it in the following semester....=(
Too bad, this course is too heavy, & UW doesn't offer what i really want.
Plus, i can't be possibly giving Japanese priority above all my other subjects & requirement that i need to fulfill in 3years time in order to graduate.
I am actually sad about this=(

Perhaps...something better is ahead for me...i shall look at the brighter side!

my DONE final draft=)

Rainy day

Walking & playing under the rain had been my favourite thing to do when i was a kid....
It has been century since the last time i did that!
It was raining when i finished my class at 4.30pm today...
i didn't bring my umbrella....
So i walked back home under the rain....with my earphone on & reminiscing the old days i had once upon a time.
I was all wet when i reached home...
Hopefully i won't fall sick*touchwood*

the rainy dark sky at 4.30pm
The day is getting shorter & shorter...
It was kinda creepy to walk alone on the street with few people & not much of cars....




Snow will be here in the next couple of days i guess...
i wonder how's my reaction when i see the real snow for the very first time in my life....Perhaps, i'll be very excited coz i was overjoy d other day when i saw some frozen rain...
i wonder how's the feeling of walking under the snow, not rain....
i know the weather is gonna be crazy in Madison,
around -18degreeCelcius....
i am worry, i am anticipating, i am prepared...

A Fruitful Day

It's my first Thanksgiving in the States.
I spent my day at a nice couple's house....The lady, Eng, is a Singaporean who has been living in Madison for 30years; her husband, Bill, is a friendly & easy-going American.
I knew Eng at around September, but we didn't get a chance to meet each other due to some unforseen circumstances everytime when we decided to meet.
I am grateful that i managed to meet her in person today.
So, Eng & her husband invited me & some 4 other International Students over for Thanksgiving dinner.
I had a lot of good food there....& i had a long-nice chat with Eng & Bill after dinner while others were playing Ping Pong.
We talked for hours....about all kind of stuff ranging from food to winter & of course, we did talk a lot abt academic stuff since she was a pure Econ major from undergrad to PHD.
I have gained a lot of things from the Thanksgiving treat today:
First, i have gained weight coz i ate a lot!
Second, i have gained knowledge & information abt lots of things.
Third, i have gained some conversational skills & i think Adam would be happy to know that i speak English for hours till i have sore-throat! XD

All in all, today is a fruitful day!
The dishes & the conversation makes me feel like home!

little gift

light refreshments are prepared when we arrived

i am so LIKE their house!
GREAT combination of American+Asian Culture!

nicely-decorated dining table

shelf with lots of ancient collection

another living room with different 'feel'

Bill was busy preparing for our dinner...
I have always admired males who can do some 'kitchen-work'
=D

This is the light refreshment.
The square orangie thingie was damn NICE!
i think i had 4 of it....
there's mushrooms & cheese & dunno-what inside.

Cranberries Pudding
Spot the little card at the back....
Eng actually printed some facts about cranberries so that we could learn something new while we eat!

Asian-Style pumpkin with curry! XD

A kind of special mixed-rice

corn mixed with other stuff

it looks good when it was full...
i should have taken the pic b4 we eat it

i think this is the best dish among others!
It's stuffed sausages with other ingredients i think!
I had a lot of this!....Believe me, u r gonna keep eating it continuosly!
This alone is enough to set my mouth-watering!

Typical Thanksgiving food, TURKEY!

Pecan Pie which is so good as well!

Another typical dessert, Pumpkin Pie

candle-lit dinner?!

the tissue is so nice that i don't dare to use it! XD

This was my dinner(1st round only)
*drooling*

dessert

Typical fireplace

i was damn excited when i saw this!
i rushed out & showed it to Bill, then he opened the door & to my disappointment, it was a hoax! LOL

confuse u confuse me & r u confused?

I guess this is too much for myself. I couldn't take it anymore.I don't feel like doing anything & hence i spent my whole night sitting there unproductively without getting any of my pending task done.My mind tend to be drifted away.I don't know how could this be happening on me & hence pls don't ask me why.I know some ppl will notice that i behave abnormally in these days but i dunno how am i abnormal to u.I am a little off my mind.I am confused & lost in somewhere.I am in the midst of finding my way out to this maze.Perhaps I think too much, or no?I dunno where am i who am i how am i whatever am i OH i'm so confused that i confused myself & get u confused as well!I'm sorry for being so confused & get u into my maze incase u accidentally slip into it.

Thanksgiving-Eve

my face as red as an apple

Bascom Hill at 8am+...
as usual, i walk thru this hill every morning under the chilly wind...
Today, it was so different....
more than half of the student population in UW has gone...Bascom Hill was so quiet, i felt weird coz of d extraordinary-quietness

My calculus lecture hall looked lk this today....
only few international students attended the class

i turned back in the midst of the lecture & i only found 2ppl

Another unusual scene....usually this place is flooding with students!
But today is an exception.



Tomorrow is Thanksgiving....
Most of the international students are staying back in this chilly town.
I saw a lot of ppl carrying their luggages waiting for thier busses to go back to their respective hometown.
Now i know how it feels to be an international students studying abroad.
i've already forgotten how it feels to carry my luggage bag heading back home...
i used to not-really-looking forward to go back home last time....
It has been 3months since the day i left home.
At this point of time, i haven't miss home yet.
Perhaps i will....in one day.
i think i'm gonna enjoy my life here....& live my life to the fullest!
3 years from now....i'm gonna pack my everything here & leave this little town.
So let's BUCKY!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING everyone!

Not my day

The biting cold today is making me crazy!
The enrollment today is even worse!

I began to adopt the habit of checking my horoscope every morning.
Most of the time, it's true for some reason.
However, it's creepy to know that it is so true that things go exactly like what the horoscope says.
.....not totally but at least 90% is true!
Superstitious or whatever u wanna call me....this is the fact!

Yterday it said that my well-organized plan will be ruined by something else....
I didn't pay much attention to the literal meaning of this sentence.
But it comes true today.....my plan is really ruined!
So i immediatedly checked on my horoscope today, it says: 'Ur opportunistic way is the key to solving an important issue. Ur energy & common sense will be recognized by all & u will achieve the goals u had set for urself & u win the palms of victory'

I do hope that this will come true.
I am someone who needs plan to live....that's why it bothers me a lot whenever my plan is screwed up unexpectedly.

GBU

Pictures update

ABC soup=P

my lunch on the grass

ThanksGiving Dinner

The nicest meal ever!

In-house Potluck

my first meal in McDonalds@Madison
I miss the apple pie back in Malaysia...
here's just too sweet for me

superb messy hair....feel lk changing a new hairstlye XD