break

Why do we need to be born into this world?
i don't know, u don't know, no one knows.

i wish i could have a break, from school, from work, from the world, from everything...

illusion?

it's merely an illusion
perhaps it's reasonable to say, the fact that we are alive on this earth is just an illusion

"If tomorrow never comes, what would u tell me today?"

I thought for a very long time before i asked this question, i regard this question as a serious one, i would really like to know what are u gonna tell me, if i am just an illusion for u, & i will be gone from ur world tmr.
When i say "u", i mean every single one of u who knows me.
When i ask this question, i really mean it.

Perhaps everything is just an illusion...

.

it haunts me again & again
u have no idea how does it feels
i'm afraid of losing something which initially belongs to me...is this what people called as greedy?
perhaps it is
the sense of insecurity is stabbing deep into me
what should i do
keeping it to myself has always been my best policy
but it's killing me
okay i'm losing my sense now
i dont know what am i writing over here
whatever
period.

...

Here're some updates on my ESL progress:

Summary 1 - DONE
Paper 1 - can be considered DONE as well
Paper 2 - IN PROGRESS
Summary 2 - soon
Paper 3 - soon

I'm now in the midst of preparing myself for paper 2....kinda stress-up indeed.
Perhaps, i'm too paranoid...but i can't help to not feeling stress at all! >.<

Well, it's been almost a month since i started this course...one more month & i can officially declare independence. i shall keep going.

Anyway, it's 1st of July yesterday
The day i started my college journey in INTI, the day i met with my girlfriends.
Now here we are....3 years down the road, still striving hard together.
Happy 3rd year anniversary! =)