i'm on d edge
...not of glory
but
desperation
.
desolation
..
& dejection
...
...not of glory
but
desperation
.
desolation
..
& dejection
...
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
hatred
Things seems to turn out bad for me recently
i made mistake in whatever things that i intended to do well
i am really disappointed at myself
i have lost myself...
YIM YONG SYEN!
where r u!?
this is just not me
the real me wouldn't be like this
i still can't forgive myself for what i have done today
never felt this bad before
yes i hate myself for the time being
i HATE u!
why am i the way i am right now?
gimme some time,
i am gonna be myself again real soon
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
huMan
People come & go, like it or not, this is a fact
When someone leaves u, it simply means that his/her part of story in ur life has ended.
What u can do is just cry, feeling heart-broken, & move on...meeting some others who can be a new story in ur life...
It's a CYCLE again, as i meantioned before,
LIFE is all about CYCLEs.
Of course, i'm not saying that every single person that we meet in our life will leave us sooner or later....it's just that we human tend to forget about this 'cycle-fact', & take things for granted at good times.
It's just like the economy of a country,
often, during an economic boom,
people would enjoy as best as they can, & wouldn't have a single thought on how to control the bubbles/prevent them from bursting.
When the bubbles finally burst, it marks the end of good times, & it usually gives everyone a huge shock, & they start blaming this & that, though they clearly knew beforehand that the bubbles would burst eventually.
Still, they did not prevent this from happening, but kept taking advantages of the good times, & feeling shock afterwards when it really happens.
Being unappreciative when everything looks good,
& feeling regret when the good things have slipped through our hand.
This is human instinct.
I am a human,
i do make this kind of mistakes,
i guess u too, don't u?
I personally feel that...it's pathetic.
What i can do is, keep reminding myself not to make this kind of stupid mistakes.
Family, friends, brotherhood, sisterhood, lover, co-workers, & even classmates....or any kind of relationships....are indeed prone to this risk of 'cycle-fact'.
u say that i am an idiot, who let things become the way they are right now...who make myself become so tired....but what i can say is,
when i keep quiet, it doesn't means that i am ignorant & don't know what's happening, i just feel that the best thing i could do is not doing anything, coz i'm afraid, afraid to make this kind of mistake, afraid to lose whatever i am having, & afraid to regret afterwards.
I just want to be simple, to be happy, that's all.
My point is,
please don't take anyone for granted when they are still around,
who knows u won't be seeing him/her anymore in the next split second;
please bear in mind that, people go & come into ur life,
relationship is fragile,
so does LIFE...
we only live once, & we wouldn't wanna carry much regrets in our life.
i freaking lOve every single one of u who comes into my life
I am trying my best, to be grateful, to be appreciative.
You're welcome to yell or even slap me, if u feel that i am not.
-end-
When someone leaves u, it simply means that his/her part of story in ur life has ended.
What u can do is just cry, feeling heart-broken, & move on...meeting some others who can be a new story in ur life...
It's a CYCLE again, as i meantioned before,
LIFE is all about CYCLEs.
Of course, i'm not saying that every single person that we meet in our life will leave us sooner or later....it's just that we human tend to forget about this 'cycle-fact', & take things for granted at good times.
It's just like the economy of a country,
often, during an economic boom,
people would enjoy as best as they can, & wouldn't have a single thought on how to control the bubbles/prevent them from bursting.
When the bubbles finally burst, it marks the end of good times, & it usually gives everyone a huge shock, & they start blaming this & that, though they clearly knew beforehand that the bubbles would burst eventually.
Still, they did not prevent this from happening, but kept taking advantages of the good times, & feeling shock afterwards when it really happens.
Being unappreciative when everything looks good,
& feeling regret when the good things have slipped through our hand.
This is human instinct.
I am a human,
i do make this kind of mistakes,
i guess u too, don't u?
I personally feel that...it's pathetic.
What i can do is, keep reminding myself not to make this kind of stupid mistakes.
Family, friends, brotherhood, sisterhood, lover, co-workers, & even classmates....or any kind of relationships....are indeed prone to this risk of 'cycle-fact'.
u say that i am an idiot, who let things become the way they are right now...who make myself become so tired....but what i can say is,
when i keep quiet, it doesn't means that i am ignorant & don't know what's happening, i just feel that the best thing i could do is not doing anything, coz i'm afraid, afraid to make this kind of mistake, afraid to lose whatever i am having, & afraid to regret afterwards.
I just want to be simple, to be happy, that's all.
My point is,
please don't take anyone for granted when they are still around,
who knows u won't be seeing him/her anymore in the next split second;
please bear in mind that, people go & come into ur life,
relationship is fragile,
so does LIFE...
we only live once, & we wouldn't wanna carry much regrets in our life.
i freaking lOve every single one of u who comes into my life
I am trying my best, to be grateful, to be appreciative.
You're welcome to yell or even slap me, if u feel that i am not.
-end-
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
落叶的季节
d earth turn round & round
i went round & round
i am back again, to this season of falling leaves
it's just a cycle
a cycle of life
no one knows what's ahead on tmr, even the next second
but the fact is pretty clear to everyone of us...
that...
no matter how far we go
no matter how many cycles we have been thru
u & me are gonna come to one final point of life eventually,
which is
DEATH
no one has ever escaped this final destination
& i believe no one would
we are all having a boarding pass to this destination
it's just the matter of time
Friday, October 7, 2011
sick?
i'm so sick
sick physically...physchologically...mentally
i am tired, so tired of my life right now
yes i mean LIFE
i have been thinking a lot recently...i know, this has been my bad habit to screw myself with my nonsense thinking
why is everything seems so complicated for me?
perhaps i'm making things complicated for myself?
i just want a very simple life...a very simple one with nothing much to worry about.
i'm taking a fascinating subject where i learn about those unseen worlds & spirits
u know what, i wish i could be in the unseen dimension forever & never come back again
perhaps the life that i would have over there is not the one i'm hoping for...but i don't care i just wanna take a forever break from everything around me right now
u can say that i am selfish...yes i am
Forgive me, i'm just being too tired
Obviously, i am not as strong as u thought
Someone ever told me that i possess a kind of "killing-silence", & it eventually forms a brick wall around me, which acts as a barrier for others to get anywhere nearer to my true-self.
Well, my silence, & the cold-outer-shell i have....are just something that could protect my inner-self, my inner-self that can be thorn apart easily.
can i call u?
...& tell u that i am indeed faking myself when i say i'm doing super-great over here?
...can i tell u that i am really tired?...though u never knew i would be so weak
...& can i tell u that i am missing u?...coz i never did before
...can i pour down all my tears?...just for once?
would u cry?..when u hear me crying?
-i knew all d answers in my heart-
still, i am asking these again & again to myself
sick physically...physchologically...mentally
i am tired, so tired of my life right now
yes i mean LIFE
i have been thinking a lot recently...i know, this has been my bad habit to screw myself with my nonsense thinking
why is everything seems so complicated for me?
perhaps i'm making things complicated for myself?
i just want a very simple life...a very simple one with nothing much to worry about.
i'm taking a fascinating subject where i learn about those unseen worlds & spirits
u know what, i wish i could be in the unseen dimension forever & never come back again
perhaps the life that i would have over there is not the one i'm hoping for...but i don't care i just wanna take a forever break from everything around me right now
u can say that i am selfish...yes i am
Forgive me, i'm just being too tired
Obviously, i am not as strong as u thought
Someone ever told me that i possess a kind of "killing-silence", & it eventually forms a brick wall around me, which acts as a barrier for others to get anywhere nearer to my true-self.
Well, my silence, & the cold-outer-shell i have....are just something that could protect my inner-self, my inner-self that can be thorn apart easily.
can i call u?
...& tell u that i am indeed faking myself when i say i'm doing super-great over here?
...can i tell u that i am really tired?...though u never knew i would be so weak
...& can i tell u that i am missing u?...coz i never did before
...can i pour down all my tears?...just for once?
would u cry?..when u hear me crying?
-i knew all d answers in my heart-
still, i am asking these again & again to myself
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