complicated~~~

if u ask me how am i???
i might not have the answer for u...
i have no idea on how should i describe my feeling right now...

if u ask me hows my life???
*remain silent**
i dunno how to illustrate my life to u...

sometimes, i asked myself whether i'm ok?
i've tried very hard to come out with the answer 'yes!'...
i even convinced myself that everyone is just like me...
therefore, i shall not complain anything about my current life which is not alive.

i'm here not to complain...
in fact, i have even lost the 'courage' to complain...
i feel tired....is this what i have to go through in this coming 4 years???

i'm scared...terrified...worried....
that one day, i'll go spiralling down to the bottom...not able to get up again....

i didn't know what is stress before this....
but now, i could feel it truly from the bottom of my heart....
am i able to cope with all these unknown challenges?
i'm doubt...
doubt about my ability...
about my future......