尽力就好?

I dare to say I've tried....I've worked hard
I almost cut down all my entertainment hours
Yet.......
i am not happy about this, i am not happy about myself
something has gone terribly wrong!

I had been trying to convince myself today, that i shouldn't set such high expectation, & i shouldn't even promise myself that eveything's gonna be alright coz i've worked hard.....
But i am not persuasive enough to myself...simply bcoz i still think that my expectation is not considered high, as compared to before.

u have no idea how am i feeling right now....the moment when i felt exhausted & wanted to give up, i convinced myself that i should keep moving on coz the desired result is just right ahead of me....but i never thought that the result would still be the same after so many weeks of preparation.

Perhaps my assumption is wrong....hardwork is not everything, u need luck together with hardwork....hand-in-hand marching towards the ultimate goal.

i am dead tired.
another battle in 2days, i am nervous that this 'unwanted result' will haunt me again...